Semi-suicidal: Unable to live this way, but not wanting to die

I genuinely don’t want to die when I’m in a semi-suicidal state. It doesn’t feel like there is a way for that to happen right now, even yet all I want is for this life to get better rather than end. Because I usually have an issue with myself rather than my spravato for depression life when I’m semi-suicidal.

I’m so fundamentally flawed in some way that it seems impossible and absurd to have a happy existence. I detest this version of myself so much that I can’t see continuing to live my life in this manner. I become so ashamed of who I am.

What Does Being Semi-Suicidal Mean

I’ve experienced multiple semi-suicidal episodes in the past six years. Suicidal thoughts or sentiments are possible in a semi-suicidal person, although they are not always motivated by a desire to end their life. For me, it usually entails thinking something along the lines of, “I don’t want to die, but I just can’t keep living this way, being this person.” Others may see this differently.

In observance of Suicide Awareness Month in September, I would want to talk about my experience experiencing suicidal thoughts. It is my goal that others who have occupied this terrible place will realize that their experiences are not unique and that others have also gone through similar things.

How to Handle Feelings That Are Almost Suicidal

How then can you protect yourself and perhaps even feel a little bit better when in this state of semi-suicidal thinking? I suggest the following three actions:

Recognize that you are Feeling this Way

I’ve tried denying my feelings for a long time, and I believe that this is a pretty frequent experience, especially when it comes to feelings that are somewhat suicidal.

You’re probably alright after all you don’t really want to die, right? False. Don’t try to push these emotions away. In order to start taking action toward feeling better, it’s critical that you acknowledge that you are experiencing this.

Inform Someone

This is difficult because, to be honest, I don’t always know what I’m experiencing, and I also don’t want to put someone else through unnecessary hardship (“Explaining Depression To A Friend”).

However, I make an effort to keep in mind that these emotions are strong and challenging, and that I need to seek out someone for support in handling them in a healthy manner.

Semi-Suicide in the Corner for One Hour

I picked up this tactic in therapy a few years ago, and it’s a little difficult because the other two phases have to be completed before you can move on. If not, all you’re doing is denying and avoiding the feelings, which isn’t going to be helpful.

You’re merely refusing to allow them to take over your entire home; you’re not running away from the  spravato treatment center  or avoiding them. Check in with them again after an hour. Have they become more pronounced, or are they beginning to fade? Keep an eye on your emotions and visit the emergency department.

Conclusion

You can treat these semi-suicidal ideas like a grumpy toddler and send them to the corner for an hour with a coloring book and a juice box once you’ve acknowledged your sentiments and told someone else how you’re feeling.